have you ever thought ;

that if one person dont like you is not your problem ; if two its also not yours ;

but if four or more people hate you is really already you problem .
the problem lies on you not other people

some people cant accept me they way i am .
guess what ? too bad . live with it .

i am happy with the way i am and i am happy with what i have .
although sometimes i cant get what i want but it doesnt matter,
things happen for a reason ,
where ever i am now or who am i with now ;
there is always a reason to it .

i do have someone who love's me , i know
he loves me so much ; i can see ; i can feel
he appreciates me ;

i am really trying and by what you are giving me ,
the unconditional love that u give me really helps me .


thanks for everything you have been giving me ; all the love and care .
you make me feel beautiful and important ;

we are happy together and we laugh a lot when we are together.
you fill my heart with laughter and joy












-im sorry for everything-

True love occurs when you lost something that you love more than your self

i loved you so much but you had to break my heart to realize

I love you more than anything else and I will be right here loving you till the end

How can I love you when you left my heart into broken pieces

Loving you was easy , losing you was hard ;

loving you is still easy but knowing you are not mine is the hardest of it all

Even though you don’t love me tomorrow I knew you loved me yesterday

Its hard to tell your mind to stop loving someone when your heart still does

Don’t say we’re not right for each other , but the way I say it ;

We are not meant for other people.

You hurt me more than I deserve but I loved you more than you deserve

To love is to have a heart to fall In love is to have a beat

i miss you so much and i wanna see you ;

i am trying so hard to move on now but all i can think about is you

bad and good time its all in my head .

on the 25th , i was thinking that you could be here next to me

on soon on the 2nd ;

i would wish how differently things would have happen

i wish i could go back to 2nd April 2009

and change everything that happened but i know it is not possible .

-you really broke my heart-

hey ya:)

im at puchong wendy's going online .
something wrong with my house connection .

everyone is so into the

'how well do you know me'' thing :)

and

restaurant city .


nothing much happened these days .
time pass as usual . so boring .

going around and missing rave .
but feel like going to there just to makan - makan









listening to : kerispatih - tape bukan aku :(

its weird how so many things happen just in this year ;

looking back on things realize everything has changed .

my life ; the things i eat ; the places i go ,

practically everything

and the worst part i am not sure how i feel about it ?

am i not happy now ? am i happier now ?
so i miss the old times or are these new ones betta?



everything that happens now deep down inside i miss you so much
that every step i make , every inch that i move ;
every second that i am breathing hurts so







badly ;




i keep my promises and i will remember the one's you made .















yes ; i did say i will love you forever <3

back to the times where i can't sleep even though its 6:44am in the morning .
the sky is bright ; dog's are awake ; people are jogging .

and i am not sleeping instead blogging . how interesting can that be >?

I NEED A HOLIDAY !!
fuck the life here ; so fucked up.
just need to run away from here .
anywhere ; any place .




i miss the times where i just used to go random trips. without planning . as soon as the idea hits our head we will hit the roads .
random kao kao !

i miss you . so much that i wish you were here next to me now .

*waiting for you*

i believe it's forever with you







<3








-J-

why is it so easy to fall in love but so hard to fall out of love ?

trying to forget someone is life trying to remember someone u have never met .
its hard and its nearly impossible .

the memory of you that i cant forget is the moment you walked away and told me i deserve someone better .

i told myself i can let you go , i dont love you but i know it is all a lie ,
a lie to make myself feel better ,
in the end i realize its making me love you more .

time can always heal my wound , no matter how much it's healed , there will always be scars .














no matter how much it hurts to see you , to look into your eyes , to hear your voice ,
i still wish i can have all those for one more time .

im back babeh !

pahang with ling ling and bling bling( derek)

people's awesome there .

we had loads of fun here and there ,

update soon . freekin tired of driving to pahang and driving back .

love love

<3

i love you too much it show , all my emotions .

funny :)

kiddo:)

picture perfect <3

priceless

life time memory :) <3

things changed so much . one by one walked away . these two didnt and they dont know how much i appreciate them because of all the times they were there for me .
i do miss the old times i used to have and i still love my friends .
i love where we all use to laugh at each other . now when we see each other we act like we dont know each other .

for me , i really do feel like it's a waste . but i cant change anything that happened .
and i dont want to look back . i just wanna live my life happily :)

so i did go to the college to check things up . but am not sure which intake should i join .

may 18th which is next monday and that means no rest OR june 15th which is one month later and one month more of fun :) >??

SO>???

i think i am going to quit my job and study full time . kinda tiring to do both . no rest days .


today i went swimming at the club . with ah bi(ling ling youngest brother) and ling ling herself . too bad derek was at OU so couldnt join us .

and later i have to send my baby toyota rush to service center . *gonna miss you*

LOL






bye bye . going to be fatter :) ( eat ma dinner)

due to some personal problems , i closed down my old blog and opened a new one .
not really closed down but just very limited people can see . actually just me . lol

new blog for a new life .

i am happy with my new life . i am not going to look back and regret what i did .
no matter in life or love , i'm not regretting .



so i am up so early morning , 10 am in the morning i already wake up when i slept at 7.30am
feel so tired now , but i have to wake up to go check some college stuff and just pick derekchin up on the way

YES , i'm finally planning to do something with my life . planning to study . will be back on track soon :)

told ya i am having a new life :)



i am freeking hungry so i am going to grab something to eat .





toodles :) <3

mother's day

i love my mummy ,
without her i am nothing , she supports me through whatever i do .
correct me when i am wrong , love's me no matter how much mistake's i do .

she is just my mum

i love you<3

this is who i am :)

miss chermaine teh yi yheng

this is me , just the way i am .

i am a happy girl and i love to laugh and i laugh loud

i dont care what you think about me , i just be the way i want to be .

i'm young and i can't stay in one place , i am very hyper and i love to jump around .

when i am emo , i am super emo .

i believe in love ,

i dont mind knowing new people and having more friend's .

i am happy with what i have now and i love to be loved .

i can be very manja ,

i appreciate the people around me and i treasure them .

once i hate you i take a very long time to like you .

i don't look back on what ever that happened and i dont regret things that i have done because

if i hadn't do what i did i wont end up here , where i am now and what i have now .

i love taking pictures , i love music

i am a very stubborn girl ; false hopes and fake promises is what i hate most ;

i love my friends cause i know they got my back no matter what happens ;

life is too precious to worry about stupid things ; live your life crazy and love every second of it :)

i am silly , cheerful , annoying

i am not everything i wish i could be but i am everything that i need to be ;

p/s: too much coke will cause a special effect on me you dont wanna know :)

believe that everything happens for a reason <3

p/s : i am in love