sometimes a strong ; aint always so strong

what is really enough ?
the love given someone might not just be enough ?
if its not enough ; what more do we need .
material ? sexual ?

what exactly .

getting a partner is easy but is keeping and holding it together as easy as it seems ?
maybe as easy like we see in the movies or what we see from outside on other people's relationship ?

the grass isnt always green ; the sky isnt always blue .
it will cloudy someday and we have to face it and go through it .
not give up

dont mention your sacrifices because we sacrifice from the heart and because we want to .
& dont regret everything that has happened in your life .

love like there is no tomorrow ;

xx

Indulge

so today i had a fun time

today is our anniversary <3

1 year and 7 months . :)

so we went out for a movie ;

with two more of his friends

whice is avinash & jivan

we watched Unstoppable . :)

it was a great movie . very kan cheong . haha

and we went to k.l ; *dont know which part*

:)

and had my baby's home food

we had nepal food .

the had dumplings that taste like *siu loong pau* haha .

and thanks to avinash girlfriend i got my favourite sweet from nepal

cause she just got back .

:)

am a happy girl <3

ill upload more pics soon .

somehow my laptop cant read my memory card from the camera .

only my brother's one .

-__________-

*sad sad*

bye bye for now .

back to playing mahjong and vegas city on facebook .

wehhheeeee

:)

xx

something special :)

baby , all i want is you .

all i need is you ;

its takes trust to build what we have ,

and go this far .

oh baby boy ; i would love to have you in my everyday life .

reminisce

why dwell in the past when there is a bright future ahead of you ;

why get unhappy about what happened in the past.

life is fair to me because i am not suffering out there ,

i have enough of clothes to wear and keep me warm ;

i have a shelter which i call home ;

and i am not starving .

why do we blame god when ever something goes wrong ?

isn't it unfair to him ?

and when things go right ? ; do we thank him .

i don't think all of us do .

why don't we just be grateful for all the things we have in life .

we will live happier like that ,

when i think back ; maybe 10 years ago i realize how lucky i am now .

do you know how many people would die to be where i am now ?

and we are just complaining complaining and complaining .

and it keeps going ........

you desrve to be a happier person .

xx

thinking

i was reading the last post and i figured out that the post has too many smiley face :)

xx

maybe baby

woke up so so late today . was almost 5.30pm . woke up by the voice of my dad which is so loud:)

took a shower ; ate my dinner

and headed down to cheras .

with my piglet , boon , kah keat and wei ye .

somehow coming back is nearer than going there . and we never fail to say that every time we go :)

had our yam cha session in MC D'S :)

after that went to see bo in CHIDAS .

always there haha . its ok . shows loyalty :) haha

then

joy riding night again :)

to the same place . hahaha . was fun though and we never get sick of it .

thats the best part. same place yesterday and same place today again .

i have fun with them around ; i laugh a lot .

come back hoping to play mahjong on facebook but hang . arghh

annoying sial .

so now its almost 6am ; sleeep time :)

goodnight .

xx

turning point

omg . am finally home and its so late .

but what to do ; my baby dont want me so i spent time with my beloved friends

we laughed so much ;

i always manage to make time for everyone so that they dont say i neglect damn .

in another way "lan c"

hehe .

tonight was joy riding night .

and now am back home wanting to play mahjong but nobody is online , :(

so no "kaki" luuu.

so just enjoying sipping on my soya drink .

heading to my dream world soon .

love

xx

today's whether is not to bad compared to other days .

its abit cooling not to sunny which kills me :)

and today i had a job interview ; *yay*

now just waiting for the jam to stop in the ldp cause i dont want to get stuck in it.

my piglet is also stuck in sunway . haha

now my baby's phone is spoilt . he had 2 and both is spoilt .

wonder how he uses it .

-_______-

must hurry to get a new phone . any suggestions ?

but i guess its either blackberry or an iphone .

cause we are used to it already .

cant go back to other brands ,

anyway got to go play mahjong now :)

xx

omg . its almost 6am and i cant sleep .
so i am entertaining myself with facebook games such as
"three player mahjong"

very nice game but abit laggy sometimes which is kinda annoying .

gotta go and try to sleep larhhh!




nights :)

xx

i can be myself

things has been so awkward and weird.
i always wonder where did i go wrong ? am i not giving out enough ?

at that very moment of my life ; i told myself maybe i should just question a little less

when you said those words to me you didnt know how much it broke my heart ,

and since you are not willing to say sorry ; i would just question a little less about your life
since you like to hold in everything to yourself and settle it all by yourself
i will just keep quiet from now on ,
this is not what i want but this is what you asked for .

i cannot share the same bed with a man i completely dont understand

this is a relationship ; not a one man show . we share our thoughts. not collect them and burst one day .

you are what i want and what i love ;


p/s: sometimes we cant get what we want .

Sometimes it's not my call

5.10.10 is the only day i will regret in my life.

i dont usually look back on what i have done but this i look back everyday .

i know i cant change a single thing and i cant go back even though how much i wish i could .

i wasnt strong enough to follow my heart ,

im sorry ;

p/s: i will never forget this day of my life

3.11.2010

i hate how time passes so fast ; next month IS the last month .

omg

i have been so addicted to online mahjong on facebook .

its called "three player mahjong"

but its a bit laggy sometimes which is so annoying .

my boyfriend made me watch this hindi movie last night .

"3 idiots"

but we had problem loading it.

i need a super super duper fast internet .

-

halloween is just around the corner .

hmmm . what should we do ?

anyway i should be in SEGI for the evening ,

but i am not sure where i will be ending the night .

now i am super super hungry .

its 3.30p, and i havent ate anything .

i am planning a holiday .

where to ?

suggestions ?

end of the year holiday :)

xx

am back

update update .

omg .

its been so freeeking long and in these few months so many things happen

so much that i dont think i can list it all out .

so the end of the year is just around the corner .

isnt it just so fast .

so people call me boring now because i am not happening .

oh well.

i admit it .

i dont go clubs anymore ; i dont go random places

i stay home and most that comes is yam cha .

haha

sounds boring ey

yup that my life .

ill update sooon ,

*hope so*

14th JULY

now am at starbucks just hanging around with the kah keat working :)

i woke up early to send my hot boyfriend to work and i didnt want to go back to sleep .

so here i am in 3 2 square .

so was in bad luck two days ago . got in an accident

haihz :(

its a long story .

but i am so glad and grateful for those who were there to help and cheer me up .

and to those who offered to fetch me around :)

i am glad i have you guys .

<3

p/s: thank god daddy didnt scold :)

9th July

sohreeee havent been updating :)

by the way i started work again . back to the same place because the raise my salary :)

woohoo ;

now sleeping early and getting up early .

just one day of sleeping late and my day is fucked :)

now i am blogging at 3 am its because my work tomorrow is noon shift .

so now staying at the boyfriends house .

and i miss home and daddy :(

still going for my yoga :)

so cool and fun ;

now we trying headstand ,

thats it for now ;

xx

waiting for the boyfriend to get food from downstairs :)

<3<3

as u can see the water is damn so clear that even you can see the fishes from here.

imagine us down there

i swear it was damn awesome :)

and btw i have a freeking bad sunburn and my skin is peeling and

its really ugly .

im so sad

:(

gonna sleep now

xx

will update more when i come back to KL

hehe:)

cause i have to pay for the internet here :(

xx

1st day

this is KRABI and this is awesome .

this is NICE

and i shouldnt have complained HOT!
now the whole night raining :)

:(

chatting on msn video call with YIN YIN & JUSTIN

xx

1ST DAY AT KRABI ISLAND

this picture is taken in the hotel lobby :)

we are staying in the AMANDARI KRABI :)

nice place . will have more pics .

but i swear to whatever ;

the whether here is so HOT !

like much hotter than malaysia .

i was telling my brother how much my hot boyfriend would suffer and complain about the heat :)

<3<3

just had our late lunch ;) nice food we ordered .

and later mummy said its

SHOPPING TIME :)

a big YES to that <3

thats it for now . will upload more soon :)

xx

p/s: i miss all of you :)

KRABI

wow .

got this picture from google :)

so beautiful right

?

hope i get to see this view in real life !

got to go now ;)

hope i get internet connection there :)

xx

:(

not a day i wanted it to be :(

the hot boyfriend was so busy with his work stuff on his off day :(

just stayed at home and went to the I.C department .

waited for so damn long time

am so pissed off

-___-

then suddenly no electricity :(

it was dark and hot !

WHOLE AREA BLACKOUT !

so i had to pack my clothes for thailand without lights.

hope i dont pack the wrong stuff ;

flying off tomorrow :)

xx

23 JUNE

it's a nice day today and i am sure it is gonna be one tomorrow . :)

gonna spend a lot of time with the hot boyfriend before i go thailand ;

but cant wait for thailand .

have been waiting for these moment for a long long time .

supposed my hot boyfriend to bring me for a holiday in his country .

cant wait for that day to happen also .

so finally the drama i was waiting for i got the the 5 episodes.

this drama is killing me . only one week once and 5 episodes a week;

but

i will finish in one night .

watched it untill 11AM last night . :)

after thailand a new week starts and another 5 episodes . cant wait.

and i swear last night ;

i cried even harder than the actor herself.

as if it was happening to me .

imagine what if the same situation happens to me ;

DIE LORRR !

:)

anyway im gonna love my hot boyfriend who is busy with his own laptop :)

goodnight

xx

♥ of my life

this is my new love of my life .

ITS the Sony Vaio E Series (PINK)

wanted green but only left with display set :) :(

so PINK it is .

same colour with my camera :)

enjoying playing with it .

FINALLY A LAPTOP :)

xx

21st JUNE

VS

tonight is BRAZIL vs COTE D' IVOIRE

very interesting game indeed .
final score was 3 -1
of of course Brazil won :)

watched with the whole gang .

yin yin , my hot boyfriend , fat brother , bo , ayi , bob and afiq :)
everyone was so tired .
and tomorrow is also a tiring day

have to wake up early so goodnight loves :)

xx

:)

Toy Story is backk !

i wanna watch this movie ,
looks and sounds interesting and it will be interesting :)

CANT WAIT!!

xx

♥

this is my so called hot boyfriend :)

this is kayg in heels :)

MOVIE

so that day was movie night with daddy , the hot boyfriend and the fat brother and the maid :)
we watched karate kid .
its was awesomeeee .

who that havent watched this movie should though .
and that night the cinema was full house .
thank god we managed to buy the tickets .

and
daddy loves popcorn :)

xx

19th JUNE

today is indeed a very tiring day and sleepy ,

so i woke up at 9am just to go to the Thai embassy
and after that came back and got a bit of sleep :)

fetched the hot boyfriend to work .
and met up with fei kai , kah keat , kayg and my fat brother .

headed to One Utama with kayg and fei kai .
walked till my legs hurt cause i was in heels .
and BTW kayg tried on my heels . :)

and went home to get some rest :)

and yeaaa . yin came over !
we cooked pancake and sausages .
just had a freeking nice meal .


yam cha session with bo , yin and the boyfriend :)
<3>
laughed so much and thats tiring .
dont think laughing is easy .
LOL


now sleeeeepingg time <3


xx

18th JUNE

♥

woke up early today just to go to the Thai embassy :)
cant wait . in less than one week .

yesterday was indeed a fun day ,
just sitting outside starbucks waiting for fiona to finish work
we were all running around like kids and sweating and LAUGHING ,
thats the most important .
just like old times :)

now i feel a bit sleepy but if i do .
i will have trouble tonight ,
;;

i shall go and eat my lunch which i dont normally do because i would be sleeping at this time .
how lazy right ?
I KNOW :)


xx

temporary home♥

this is my temporary home ;
its not where i belong .
windows and rooms that im passing through
this is just the start on the way to where i'm going
i'm not afraid because i know ;;



sometimes we do things we thought we wouldn't .
who would ever know what will happen next.

appreciate ones that you love

TAO

this day was tao night .
but this pictures supposed to be up a long long time ago .
its a treat from daddy before my fat brother goes to korea .
but sadly ;
he has a lot of gas in his stomach he didnt make it worth it .
i know this sound not worth it too but i love the
PEACH TEA !

its cool cause its like a buffet and u can order from the menu as well .

go try
:)


xx

5.13PM

so thailand in one week :)

going to a place called krabi island
with mummy and my fat brother :)

17th June

its 6.49am and i just finish watching movie in the hall
watched the show Leap Year
by Amy Adams .
not too bad . kinda interesting and romantic.

so i have been chasing this other chinese drama .
chasing till i will have not enough sleep .
i will watch it till 10am .
BUT its so so addictive .

so i got an offer from my old working place .
still confused whether i should join or not
should i ?

tomorrow is my hot boyfriend's off day from work
that is what he save his name as in my handphone .
*nak sangat*

gonna watch karate kid with the loved one, daddy and my fat brother .
did i mention he just came back from korea not to long ago.
and i got a bag from him :)

i'm bored and i think i am gonna try to sleep



xx

6.55AM

tonight is indeed a boring night .

no entertainment ; somehow cant go in to facebook .

argh !!!

and no yam cha LOL

my favourite .

home by 1.30AM and now its 2.30AM

and i am just smoking and drinking coke .

which both are bad for health .

boring boring boring .

thats all i can say .

and my dumb dumb baby is playing that stupid night city game on facebook .

which is not even interesting

and now he is also smoking and drinking coke .

and after so long of coming back to his house in puchong ;

this place is officially a mess.

nobody cleans the house and most importantly the toilet .

the toilet floor is ducking dirrrtyyy !

like those floor cleaning adverts where u wipe the floor and you can see a different colour .

and im not exaggerating .

going to toilet is to clean yourself but once i step in i feel dirtier .

big yucks to that .

and now the boyfriend is watching movie while i blog here .

boring night .

xx

chrystian teh is in KOREA now .
having the time of his life .
hope i get a present .
hehe :)

anyway everyday the whether has been freeking crazyyy !
its either its HOT like HELL
or RAINS like CRAZY
and that everywhere will be flooded and full of accidents .

so today its just a stay home day because its a broke day .
daddy not coming home for dinner .
so will just stay home to online .

all my friends are busy working anyway .

so end of this month will be going to thailand .
with mummy .

at last a holiday . where ever at least its out from here .
needed this for a very long time .
havent been out for almost two years .


update more later .

xx

finally

finally !!!

after a few months i decided to blog again :)

and there has been so many changes and updates .

so first , as you can see from the picture above i have cut my hair short .
it was shorter when i first cut it , DUH !

then my little angel dog gave birth to beautiful 5 puppies .
and the birth day one died .
:(
anyway daddy says we cant keep to many because to noisy .

so for now thats it .
not much but thats it for now .

later for more


xx

i guess this is when fun ends :(

i am going back to work .
hope it is a fun enviroment :)

but the one month's training is gonna be crazy and i havent started
but thinking about it makes me wanna kill myself :(

i have to reach Kuala Lumpur by 8.15am
and that is not COOL

but after one month training i can go back to work which is in TTDI
Taman Tun Dr Ismail.
not so far and i dont have to wake up so early :)

crazy life just for one month . hope its all worth it .

but when money talks
u'll have to work for it .
xpecially to get what u want in life .

from buying things to going for a holiday . everything needs what we call
$$$$
CASH !

blog sometime else.am tired already .




xx

jessica the hottie.
if im a guy i would die for her

sunny.
can she be any cuter :)

oh god.

anyway peeps ,

check out this korean group.
eventhough u dont understand you would love it .
and be addicted to it.
trust me.

u can start from the song GEE.

everybody around me is freeking crazy about it .
and i bet u will too :)



xx

currently in wang cafe now .
with chocolate girl ; chocolate love .
and myself as chocolate sunshine . :)

listening to jazz version of gee all the way :)
love jessica so much .
she's hot and she has a nice voice

so we all have been onlining and anti social here .
cause we doing our own things on our laptop's

2 hours .
minding our own business.

this is how boring life gets.

here comes goodbye

what do you expect me to say ?
what i really want to ?

i dont think so cause thats not what you wanna hear &
it wont make a diff or maybe it will
but only worse.

what i wanna say wont matter to you anyway
so why bother .

thats is. its over .

i really hope the best for you

since the day you left till now ;
i have been waiting






and i still am






xx

here comes the start of every sleepless night ;
the first of every tear i'm gonna cry





its the stay at home and eat dinner day
Lol .
daddys already complaining why doesnt he see my face at all
so yesterday i was a good girl
stayed home for dinner . & tonight as well.

the heading out for sure ,:)


so fast its already almost middle of jan .
just sit and think how time flies
that it all feels like its just yesterday .


stupid simon . still dont want to come back from hometown :(

got to go for dinner :)



xx

love's

SEND IT ON

words just a word till u mean what u say

love isnt love till you give it a way

just one spark starts a fire




today was one hell of a day .
was raining heavily and chrys car got stuck in a flood .
had to push the car under heavy rain .

kinda fun though .
the times where playing in the rain was so fun and
never thought about getting sick :)



crazy day
what a start


xx

HERE I AM

scream till there's nothing left
with your last breath ;

here i am


i miss you
and im tiredofmissingyou ;
thinkingofyou
wishingyouwerehere



i want to hug you before i sleep ;
scolding you for your nonense actions
annoy you before you sleep





i miss you ; <3



p/s : i am waiting for you

IT'S NOT HOW FAR YOU WALK ; ITS WHO YOU WALK IT WITH

they are there when you think everything is gonna fall down on you ; you didnt know

now good friends are easy to find but hard to keep
those you know will last you a lifetime .

i've found mine
:)

love is easier to find but even harder to keep .
those who are willing to walk with you through the up's and downs
when you found yours hold it tight




<3

xx

i love you guys :)
<3<3


xx

sohai

see this sohai ?

she is my friend
some call her piglet :)

i love her much much

and i will be there for her no matter what happens
and im there to catch her when she falls



forever <3


love

xx

i love the people around me :)